#Light The World

Posted on: November 27, 2016




I’ve been so distraught lately with the Presidential Election, Standing Rock, Terror attacks in Syria, and the many other horrible things going on in the world I was so happy to stumble upon this service campaign from the LDS church! Not a better way to celebrate the holidays in my opinion! The world could use a little light and mankind could use a little love. I’m in… are you? Full calendar here!



let’s move abroad

Posted on: November 18, 2016


If any of you keep up with me on social media you know that we relocated our lives to Barcelona, Spain. It didn’t happen as glamorous as my instagram feed makes it seem so let me catch you up. Back in the fall/winter of last year Carson started pursuing MBA programs and started the application process. We had a few other schools on the list along with IESE and decision time didn’t happen till this past April. We tossed around the decision to move abroad a few times, but once he got accepted we really had to think about it.  It came down to midnight the evening before decision was due and we finally made our decision to got to Barcelona for grad school. It was this exciting fantasy for a few weeks and then things got real really fast! The process of acquiring our visa’s was super long (if any of you need to do that, I have all the good tips) and stressful! After a ton of paper work and fees, everything came back go to go! We were clear to travel.


We headed to Spain in August of this year and jumped right into things as soon as we arrived! We couldn’t move into our flat yet so we rented an Air Bnb while we waited for move in day. It would have been so nice to go directly to our place but it did give us a chance to see a different neighborhood filled with wonder before we settled in!

We took our two dogs with us (we couldn’t bare to leave them) and the process was surprisingly easy. We had to get the necessary paperwork together and I expected the Spanish policy to interrogate us at the airport, but we just walked out with dogs in hand. No one checked us!!! The gate agent in NYC asked to see the rabies paperwork and that was it! I was prepared to pull out all forms and put up my mom guard! Thankfully no such “mom” moment was needed and we headed on our way.

We had a few days to explore a bit before jumping into the IESE Business Spanish program. Two weeks of 6 hours a day of Spanish! Thankfully we had Sunday’s off but it was intense! Carson placed in a higher level than me thanks to his Portugese and I stared in level 2! It was a lot. New country, new environment, and straight into class. I haven’t had to use my brain like that since I was 18! As a dancer, I started my career right away and didn’t attend any further schooling. It took me a few mins to remember how to use that side of my brain. Lots of studying, one panic attack, and six erasers later, I survived it and passed to level 4! Woot!


moving on…

Sadly it was then time for me to go back to the US for work. That was a tough decision because I wasn’t ready to give up my career as a Choreographer but I also wasn’t ready to leave Carson and our pups behind. I owe a HUGE thank you to each and every studio, dancer, and director that welcomed me with open arms providing me a space to create and be fulfilled. I NEEDED it. I didn’t think I did with this new adventure of ours but this choreography season was a special one. Sacrifice always makes the reward sweeter and I think it pushed me to do my best. Create quality work worthy of the time spent away from my little family. After 2 months and 10 days apart I headed home! 40 something pieces of work later and I was pooped! Time to sleep and rejuvenate!


Oddly enough, that’s hard for me! I cannot seem to slow down and the idea of “taking time off” is so foreign to me. Due to Spanish law, I can’t exactly work with our type of visa so I technically am forced to take time off. I’ve got to find a purpose here for me. Dedicate myself to something so I can feel proud of me! I think that’s important. Carson will have his schooling that fills his time and I need to find my “thing” here. So…here is to a HUGE life change, living a little braver each day, and going #fullcheetah.



Anniversary Celebrations with Our Favorite Wizards

Posted on: May 17, 2016


May 7th was our five year wedding anniversary and it really snuck up on us. Time has flown by, but our lives have changed so much since we said “I do”.  The hubs surprised me with tickets to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal Studios Hollywood. It’s basically in our backyard and we were dying to go!


Hogsmede is adorable. I felt like I was stepping into the movie. SO WELL DONE! We experienced Olivander’s wand shop and the many little wizards running around with new wands. I love that we love amusement parks. Well to be honest we are mostly Disney fans but Universal did a pretty good job with Harry Potter. Especially the main attraction at the castle. The queue itself was a t0ur of the Hogwarts Castle through Dumbledores office, Defense Against The Dark Arts Class, moving photographs, and so much attention to detail! It didn’t feel like we were waiting at all. The ride is the best part of the whole park. Its a mix of 3D graphics and real life roller coaster feel! I’ve never ridden anything like it! It did make Carson super sick. Poor guy.


I know I said the ride was the best part, but the Butterbeer came in a close second. It’s a magical butterscotch/root beer concoction that’d I would go back for! We had a blast. The rest of Universal Studios is what it is but Harry Potter was definitely worth a visit! I have so much fun running around with Carson and these are memories I will cherish forever! I’m so excited for the next year and many more ahead for us!



Taking Control of My Health

Posted on: May 15, 2016


It has been quite awhile since you’ve heard from me, and I thought it was about time you did! I’ve shared a little bit over the years about some of my health issues, mainly a lot of deficiencies, and what I’ve been doing to try and heal my body! I struggle with leaky gut, iron and multiple vitamin deficiencies, and super low blood sugar. I went through a 6 month holistic treatment plan a few years back in utah with Red River Wellness and we discovered a ton about my body. I am fortunate that my body is still very functional because I do understand things could be much worse! I was done with feeling tired all the time, depressed, and struggling with weight gain. The plan worked well and we took a lot of time with special dieting, supplements, and blood tests to get most of the issues resolved.  But a year later I had my blood checked again and it was dangerously close to the same as before my treatments.

Honestly I was at a loss.  I was so sick of eating the same type of food daily, swallowing a bunch of vitamins, and dealing with fatigue. As a dancer I was really sick of dealing with the yo-yoing of my weight and you can imagine the stress I put on myself to loose it. My body just couldn’t regulate itself well enough to function properly. Granted I am not perfect. I eat sugar (too much of it) and other processed foods that I really should stay away from, but overall I take pretty good care of myself and I shouldn’t have been feeling this badly.  I knew something was missing.

January of this year rolled around and I decided (like everyone else) to participate in a 30 detox challenge.  I reached out to a friend who is a certified nutritionist, health coach, personal trainer, and phenomenal dancer for her Transform 30 program. I thought it was just another “whole 30” type of a plan.  Turns out it was better and easier in my opinion. 30 days of no dairy or gluten. I’m intolerant to both so that’s something I could do! She also introduced me to Juice Plus. I was skeptical at first because I was already swallowing way too many vitamins and here is what I learned.

Juice Plus+ is whole food based nutrition, including juice powder concentrates from 30 different fruits, vegetables and grains. Juice Plus+ helps bridge the gap between what you should eat and what you do eat every day. Not a multivitamin, medicine, treatment or cure for any disease, Juice Plus+ is made from quality ingredients carefully monitored from farm to capsule to provide natural nutrients your body needs to be at its best.

I was up for the 30 day challenge and to give the capsules a shot. Two weeks in I could already feel the difference. No longer did I have to take a break in my pilates class and my energy levels were great! I definitely don’t eat 30 different fruits and vegetables a day and that’s really what I needed.  My body was craving the nutrients it wasn’t getting and i’m feeling so much better. Of course its no substitute for clean eating but it helps me bridge the gap :) I also love how my skin glows and my weight is finally at a normal spot :) Isn’t it crazy how when we feed our bodies right they just work?!

I hesitated sharing my story because I can’t count the countless products people throw at my face. But I felt selfish in keeping the knowledge I now have to myself.  I want to help the next generation of dancers take care of their bodies the way I didn’t. This generation of athletes is training harder than ever and they need the nutrition to support it. I want to be a voice of health and body love, not stress and weight management.

If you have any questions comment below! I’d be happy to share my experiences!



SYTYCD for kids?

Posted on: February 9, 2016

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Have you seen the news? Fox has renewed So You Think You Can Dance for another season. The only twist is you have to be between the ages of 8-13 to audition. I’ll repeat that. 8-13 years of age everyone.

While its exciting for that group of kids its disgusting to me as a professional.  The importance of “fame” is valued too greatly in the dance world. These kids look to a reality show for their inspiration and career aspirations. What happened to buying a ticket to the ballet, or the latest professional company that is rolling through town? Daily training full of success and failures. Blood sweat and tears. Not a makeup team telling you which camera to play to.

This isn’t to discount the talent of any dancer that has previously been on the show. I myself auditioned and had a great experience. I know many past contestants and they are fabulous professionals. That’s just it though, they are professionals. I can’t imagine the pressure and mental stress these little dancers will face with the america telling them if they are good enough. It’s worrisome.

Overall, I miss the good ol days without youtube, instagram, and reality tv.  The days of hard work, kickin your butt in class, supporting your friends, and creating true art. What happened to all that? I miss art and it’s our jobs to create it without the pay off of “fame”.




My Daily Go To Smoothie

Posted on: January 25, 2016


A little recipe for you today! I recently discovered Juice Plus and my life is changed! We can talk more about that later (send me a message if you’d like) but I wanted to share a super EASY and quick smoothie recipe I use daily!



Coconut Water ( I use Zico)

Two cubes of frozen Spinach (blend spinach with a bit of water and then freeze it in an ice tray! super easy)

Half of a frozen Banana

Handful of frozen berries (I used blueberries)

1 scoop of Juice Plus Complete (or any plant based protein)

Any additions you want! I like to add a little almond butter but anything like flax or chia seeds is great too!

Combine ingredients above in order they are listed and blend to enjoy! I use a little magic bullet and it works great for me!  No need to spend a fortune on a Vitamix to get a good smoothie taste.

Happy Blending!



What Am I Afraid Of?

Posted on: January 4, 2016

Jesse by joseph@josephspelman.com 2015-09-23 (15)Ever wonder why the blog goes silent for awhile? I’ll tell you. I don’t have much to say on those days and I don’t want to fill your feed with froo froo posts just to say I’m posting often. I’ve repeated over and over again how I want this space to honest, real, and a peek into a dancers life, so let’s  keep it there for today. Here comes another deep dancer post…don’t complain I didn’t warn you :)

Did you catch that? I just tried to get you to skip this post because I am afraid.  Not afraid of the boogie monster or zombies, although I probably should be, I’m afraid of failure.  You may be wondering why I chose to be a dancer then? Failure is more common than success and I didn’t step into this career blind about it. I knew I would get cut at 100 auditions before booking one, or fail in class multiple times.

This doesn’t scare me.  I’m not afraid of messing up in class, getting cut at an audition, or falling on stage.  I’m simply afraid of disappointing others. Why should I care about others? I shouldn’t.

I had a teacher tell me just the other day that I’ve got to figure out how to let go. “Screw perfect” she said. I get that and I am always preaching to my students the same principle. Perfect is boring.  How the heck do I let go? Is it just that easy? I’ll take any and all available tips!

Apparently not for me. I like to be in control. Control of my schedule, control of my job, and control of my body. Well its 2016 and it’s time for a change.

Have you ever heard the story of Icarus? To sum it up Icarus and his father attempt to escape from Crete by means of wings that his father constructed from feathers and wax. Icarus’s father warns him first of complacency and then of hubris, asking that he fly neither too low nor too high, so the sea’s dampness would not clog his wings or the sun’s heat melt them. Icarus ignored his father’s instructions not to fly too close to the sun, whereupon the wax in his wings melted and he fell into the sea.

The first time I heard this story I was only told half. I believed the story to only contain a warning of being too confident and flying too close to the sun.  It recently came to my attention I had not heard the entire story.  Icarus is also warned of flying too low. Has anyone ever warned you of flying too low? Probably not and I’ll tell you why.  It’s easy for the media, society, and culture to warn us of getting over confident and flying to high. They’d like us to fly to low. Flying to low keeps us from gaining wings to fly at our highest. I had the opportunity to sit an listen to Seth Godin a few months back and he shared another analogy I loved. We gain nothing from standing on the edge of a cliff. But if we run and jump we either fly or find our wings on the way down.

I spent 2015 standing on the edge afraid of failure and I refuse to spend 2016 the same way. Although I may crash a burn, an artist never holds back. I’m going to brave and I invite you to do the same.

Happy New year friends!



lululemon leadership conference 2015

Posted on: October 29, 2015


To say that my life was changed is an understatement.  I can’t even describe the feelings I had during conference.  I was honored to be one of the 17 worldwide educators selected to attend and I walked in without any expectations.


Let’s start with my travel day.  My ticket was booked through Alaska Airlines but the flight was actually on an American Airlines plane. I was shuffled between both desks at the LAX (which is a nightmare to begin with) causing me to miss the hour check in mark for an international flight. I waited in the American Airlines 20 min line to rebook my flight only to be told I had to march back to Alaska to be rebooked.  So I ran back to Alaska. Waited in that line only to be told I had to call the travel agency that booked the flight through lululemon.  I was greeted by the sweetest women there and she informed that they couldn’t rebook me, it had to be the agent at the airport. By that point I am in full on tears and back in the Alaska line. An Alaska agent finally gives me some answers but for confusing reasons couldn’t book me and directed me to the Alaska airlines reservation hotline.  After being disconnected 3 times, I finally got on a flight to Seattle. Tear stained face and all I as so grateful to be on that plane. The next flight out of Seattle to Vancouver wasn’t till 11:10 pm and I was due to land in Seattle at 2:30 pm meaning I would be in that airport all day. God was looking out for me because I sat next to the NICEST people on the plane and I landed the last standby seat on an earlier flight to Vancouver. The good news is that I finally made it and the bad news is my bag didn’t!!! Another round of phone calls and I finally got my bag by 2 am that night. Rough start to say the least.


Day one began with meditation lead by Laurent, our super cool CEO, and all things lululemon related. The room was full of 987 of lululemon’s store managers, Regional/Area leaders, Corporate leadership, and the 17 educators. The 17 of us were asked to stand and the room erupted with applause and appreciation. Tears filled my eyes witnessing us all standing together and the love in the room.  lululemon firmly believes that the educator is the most important role in the company and it was unreal to stand there as a representative at conference.


Day 1 continued to get better as we learned more about our Senior Leadership, the year in review, and whats next for the company. #joblove and #jobpride.  Countless dance parties, sweaty Kundalini yoga, and the November project, bonded the members of conference together and the connections I made with lemons from all over was priceless!


I got up close and personal with the lululemon’s new core values and dug a little deeper to find mine.  I sat a table and ate with the Women’s design/ merchandising team and marveled at their jobs. Day two I met my #girlcrush and chatted with her about her role and my goals to follow in her footsteps. I listened intently to Seth Godin and i’ve decided to live full cheetah in all aspects of my life. In-Q made me cry with his powerful poetry and his passion for his art which reaffirmed my love and passion for mine.  I create my future and no artist waits for the right time to make great art. Tracy Hutton reminded me to choose happiness and that #happinessisnowhere. Hari Om.


Day three I marveled at all the international opportunities and the growth overseas. I marveled at the passion and clear vision that the Senior leaders have for lululemon. I marveled at the possibilities to elevate the world and what we are up to to do just that.  Susan Conrad challenged us to let go of anti-visions we create for ourselves and others.  Reminded us to forgive ourselves and I proclaimed my goals in front of the entire team of store managers and leadership for USA. I am thankful I experienced it all with Jen (my amazing store manager) who supported me the entire way. We laughed, cried, danced and sang.  Both changed forever.  Great leaders develop great people and she does just that.


Vancouver and all it’s beauty stole my heart and I wouldn’t be surprised If I am back very soon. Mountains, beaches, a beautiful city, and lululemon. What more do I need? :)


We toured the Head Office (store support center) and I had job envy the entire time. Meeting those responsible for the product I love was exciting and I asked way to many questions. In the basement, there is a space that’s just for innovation and creativity called the white space and I was lucky enough to tour it. Again #jobenvy. I died when we toured the design area filled with fabrics, colors swatches, and upcoming designs. You could call me a little product obsessed.


The final wrap up Bonfire may have been my favorite.  The entire conference room was transformed into a large bonfire scene and it was an epic party complete with the CEO participating in Dance Dance Revolution. Just picture 987 lululemon folk ready to have a good time. Oh..and I can’t forget the mini smore’s!


IMG_5297I don’t even know how to wrap it all up. I wish I could relive this experience over and over again.  It’s my goal to let it live in my daily life. I came home inspired and changed. Changed to do better, be better, and stop apologizing for who I am. To be happy and that I am the master of my happiness. I matter and what I do matters. I will not say sorry for my art. I create my future.



Dreaming of Fall

Posted on: October 12, 2015


Fall is no where in California. It was dreamy, drizzling, and foggy in Vancouver but with my busy work schedule I enjoyed it from my hotel window.  I was hoping San Fran would give us a taste of crisp air but It didn’t. Luckily we enjoyed the heat and got our sweat on climbing up and down the rolling streets.


These Durango Moccasin boots are dying to be worn and I’m dying to wear them through a pile of crispy leaves. I complained about cold in Minnesota but I’ll take it now! Its 82 degrees in the middle of October here! It’s going to be Christmas before I get a chance!



1. Moccasins. 2. Scarf (similar). 3. Sweater. 4. Jeans. 5. Watch. 6.Lipstick




Posted on: September 6, 2015




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